If you are similar to me, you have at LEAST two pregnancy books by your bed. You probably have a few books that have to do with your pregnancy like “Your Pregnancy: Week by Week” and a few other fun books about infertility like “What to Expect Before You’re Expecting.” These books are somewhere hidden in a drawer in your night table (on top of the unused box of condoms from 2002) or scattered under your bed away from sight. You don’t really want guests finding these books one day.
You love reading the pregnancy books but you ALWAYS turn to the “trying to conceive” & “infertility” chapters first. You find that you are not ready yet to read the chapters about actually being pregnant. You love reading these books just before bed or laying in the bathtub. Your husband is use to this already, and you might have even tried getting him to read a book about male infertility. He skimmed the chapters, stopped cycling so much, and now you have him on a multi-vitamin that seems, at least, to be making him healthier in the winter.
You have picked up these books at the local bookstore or at the library, always a little embarrassed to purchase them from the cashier especially the books called “A Woman’s Guide to Infertility.” We don’t have anything to feel ashamed about but we still don’t want to talk about it in public, and definitely not to the librarian who gives you a sympathetic nod. Sometimes you just browse the bookstore for hours and flip through those books without actually buying it.
You look around the bookstore cautiously to make sure you don’t run into anyone while you read these books.
If you do run into someone, this is what might happen:
Friend: “Naomi? Is that you?”
You (hiding a book about ovulation and vagina’s), nervously “Oh hi. What are you doing here?”
Friend smiling: “I’m looking for a pregnancy book. I just found out I’m pregnant!”
You (monotone): “Congratulations.”
Friend: “Are you pregnant too?”
You: “I just remembered, I have to go.” (Unsure of what to say, you throw your ovulation and cervical mucus book on the floor and run to the bathroom where you cry for at least 30 minutes. Your entire day is ruined).
Hopefully that hasn’t happened to you but I bet it will.
Yes, we love those pregnancy books. We will be so excited when we finally stop turning to the ‘infertility’ section first and actually read the pregnancy portion. Until then, enjoy your reading, there is a lot of information out there and we know it, at least, helped a few people.